what an emotional fucking rollercoaster. i’m still crying.
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this was actually for real the perfect book. heartbreaking, surprisingly hilarious, and hopeful. literally everything i could ask for. oh my god i need to give this more than 5 stars.

ava wilder you crazy bitch!!!!!! i knew what was coming and it still knocked me on my ass and made me cry at work TWICE!!!!!!!!!!!!! i agree with past emily i will never shut up about this book.

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i don’t think i’ll ever shut up ab this book

this is the closest i’ve ever been to being genuinely triggered by a book. it’s also the most i’ve ever seen of myself in a book, which is probably why it hurt so much to read. it was near torture listening to every self destructive coping mechanism that i knew too well, that i let drag me down into a hole that took me years to crawl out of. my heart hurts for the little girl i used to be. i wish she got to be a girl for a bit longer.

better than the first book but not what i needed it to be. i literally only read this for context for damon’s book. this felt more like a book about damon than it did kai. idk

same violent misogyny and almost rape though!

my god what a book. what a fucking book.

still my favorite!!!!!!!!!!
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this just might be her best book yet….. and i do not say that lightly

god fucking damn it this is an SMP book so that’s why i haven’t heard about it. my bad everyone
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OHHHHH MYYYYY GODDDDD HOW HAVE I NOT HEARD MORE ABOUT THIS BOOK??????

3.5 stars. cute but meh.