For someone who has thought way too much about death years ago, I was excited to read what Gayle Forman came up with. I wanted to get this book as soon as it came out. School and Time and the lack of money didn't quite allow it.
Well, anyway. I just got it recently and was, still, excited to read this novel.

The story line was good. I liked how the protagonist was the dead girl's best friend, the other half of this duo. For someone like me, who calls their best friend the other half - even the better half, I couldn't imagine what I'd do on Cody's place.

Death, in general, is such a painful topic. Reading about how a girl decides to die might sometimes even be easier than to read about a girl who has to live without her best friend, who has commited suicide.

The way the story went one was great. Forman's writing was beautiful and full with emotions, which made the reading to go so fast.

On the back of my book, a quote by Chbosky - who's the author of one of my favorite books - says that Forman gives "us an unflinchingly honest potrait of the bravery it takes to live after devasting loss". And right he is.

The setting, same as the characters, were great. For anyone who rants about the chances to have a guy who's totally into IT and helping you and about a hot guy helping you out and falling for you, they probably should consider that we read books to feel something and to escape reality. Not to effing bump into the next reality while we were desperately trying to escape one.

I like contemporaries because they seem so real, they have topics, like suicide, which are so close to reality, and still we can escape because fiction stays fiction.

Overall, this one's a great one. Probably it's not the best idea to give this to a suicidal person, but on the other hand, maybe this one can help such a person.

After all, those struggles and those feelings are real, they are happening in the real world. It's the way Forman created characters and this setting which may lead us to pay more attention and to forgive each other.

She also created so many bondings which are real. A friend who's all shiny and popular and then one who's not? Maybe a cliché in books, but those relationship exists.

A cute boy who could have every girl he wants? Well, maybe sometimes such boys fall for those who are stubborn and not easy to get (not by purpose! Just like Cody is someone who doesn't show interest in Ben). Actually, that IS happening, too.

Tricia and Cody? There are daughters who call their moms by their first names. Sometimes that mother-daughter-bond just isn't there.

What I'm trying to say, is that Forman discusses so many different topics in this book while Meg's death still is the main point of this story. That's probably why I love her books. Why I loved this one. The way it is full with emotions makes it easy to feel the characters' loss and the problems they have to face.

However, the ending - the epilogue - stays the most beautiful part.
The last two lines are heart-warming.

Definetely, a great book!

Forman, you did a great job on this one.

That's it?
Oh my god.

First of all the 4 stars go to the book, the story and everything in general. I haven't really enjoyed the Hana part, only a few chapters seemed interesting enought but that was it.

The Lena story part was amazing. I loved how the story turned and I loved how much she has changed. The love triangle between her and Julian and Alex wasn't as bad as expected but still I have one problem if it comes to the ending.

The most interesting part happened at the end anyway. People died. People found to each other, people saved each other. People fought.

Now the spoilers....

I don't really know what to say about Raven's death. It just didn't feel right but I guess it wouldn't feel much more right if no one died.

When Hana and Lena meet, I was mad at Hana ... I couldn't really read her chapters after I read that she was the one telling on Lena and Alex. I knew that Hana would (probably) save Lena. I also knew that Hana was going to leave Fred behind. But what happened after that to her?

Gracie. Oh Gracie. I AM REALLY happy that Lena ONLY saved Grace. It felt soooo right and I'm happy that Lena has found her and they have each other.

The story of Solomon. And Alex. And Julian.
I was Team Alex and even though I knew back then while reading Pandemonium that Julian will be Lena's new love interest, I was hoping that Alex would show up and get her back.
And now the question is ... Did he?
Who knows? Because we don't.

Don't take me wrong. I like Julian, he's full of goodness, but I just like the relationship between Alex and Lena better.
What did make me angry was that there was no bonding between Julian and Lena anymore. And all of sudden, Lena decided that she could never love Julian as much as she loves Alex. Yay! Good for us, the Alex lovers, but I still don't like the way she started to act around Julian (even though I knew that that's meaning it's Alex time) However, in the end, we don't get anything. A brief kiss between Alex and Lena and a wall which's falling.

We don't know what will happen to Hana.
We don't know what happens to Julian and Lena.
Or to Alex and Lena.
We don't know what happens to the uncureds one and cureds one.

We know that Alex kissed Lena, and she went off to make a wall fall.

That's it.

And I love the ending as much as I hate it.


That's why the book gets 4 stars.

I JUST SAY FEELS
AND
KDLSÖSLSBDKSLLSNSKSNSKSKALKD
BECAUSE .....I LIKED THE WRITING THE WAY IT SKIPPED FROM THEN AND NOW BUT OMG ALEXXXXXXXX MY HEART OMG THE END .... It hurts.
And I'm supposed to sleep. I have to get up early tomorrow but I want to start Requiem now .. Because my heart's bleeding.
I love love love Alex. And then this.
Can I hug him. Love him. Please????????????
Omg nooooooooooo
Omg omg omg omg
Omg
The whole book I knew he's alive and I didn't want her to be with Julian because Alex had to be alive and now ..
Omg ......
THE FEELS.


*dead*