I found myself never reaching for this book after getting it again from the library to finish it and since it’s once again due tomorrow I thought I’d binge read it but wow … I really don’t care about this story so best I just DNF and move on. Definitely a specific book for a specific type of humor but after 100 pages it gets old quick. 

DNF @ about 50% (?)

This book really hooked me from the beginning and although the writing felt something to be desired I could overlook it. I found the way that the characters conversed, although awkward and unrealistic, to really add to the overall weirdness and tension of the story. 

Things took a turn when the "twist" happens at the end of part 1, about 50% in the book. I will not spoil anything, but I found that this twist really changed the tone of the book in a way that made me lose interest completely. I actually went ahead and read spoilers of what happens next and I just found it completely uninteresting and reductive to what I was hoping was going to be a much more compelling story.

I was actually really interested in this book and the topic. I personally have also struggled with depersonalization (and some derealization) and I really connected to some of the descriptions in this book. I also found it interesting to read about someone who is not open to accepting that their feelings are something more common and possibly treatable; but also the feeling that even though there is an "answer" it's hard to feel as if there just be an "easy" solution. 

However, the more I read the more I just found myself losing interest. This seems to take place during therapy sessions and I just found it slightly boring and repetitive even in the first 50 pages. I think that the writing style is unique and really fits the story being told, but I just couldn't bring myself to continue reading. The more I lost interest the more I found it hard to keep track of what was happening.

Maybe one day I will return to this, but for now I have other books I want to read more.

DNF @ pg. 154

I was actually pretty excited from the first chapter and the set up of these mysterious deaths, but dear god was this BORING! The writing was simple, but also repetitive so that got old quick. There is zero tension, zero suspense, and because within the first few chapters you already get an idea of what is really going on the book loses all mystery. I was gonna hold on to see just exactly the deaths happened, but I had to be honest with myself that it was not worth it. I never wanna hear about rock climbing again. 

DNF @ 12% (pg. 43)

I was really intrigued and I liked how it immediately jumps into the story but with every page turn I just felt more and more confused. I found the writing hard to follow with its countless references and match-making jargon. I was interested in the family dynamic, but I just failed to see what the point was with her job. Also they conveniently had access to so much private information it made it hard to believe.  

I'm currently in a mood where if I'm not vibing with something I'm gonna move on to something else. I have a lot of books from the library waiting and so back to the library with this. From the little I read, I didn't vibe with the main character and the style of stream of conscious. I was already confused at certain points and nothing had even happened. I might one day come back to this and give it another chance and for that I love the library. 

I was interested with the first match and then as I started reading the second one I realized I truly don’t care. This is already a short novel and I don’t know how it continues, but if it continues the same way I’d argue maybe these would have been better as a novella. 

DNF @ pg.95 I just didn’t/couldn’t get it.

Put this down and decided to read something else and come back to it. Well I've come back and after reading two more pages I've realized I truly do not care. This is partially my fault because I went in expecting more contemporary and romance (I wanted to give romance genre a shot), but it turned out to be slightly more fantastical (and it's really not all that fantasy) than I expected. The story feels lost and the use of the main character's SA experience feels disingenuous. 

I think it’s time I consider the possibility that short stories might no longer be for me