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emilyreadstoomuch's Reviews (787)
i literally don’t even know where to begin. this book hit me like a FREIGHT TRAIN???? i read iced out and liked it but wasn’t blown away by it. i was expecting the same reaction to this book. BUT i could not have been more wrong. i haven’t cried over a book in several months and i was SOBBBBINGGGG at the fucking angst and longing and heartbreak. read this STAT
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yeahhhhh reread holds up
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yeahhhhh reread holds up
iiiiii honestly don’t even know how to start. this was so good SO GOOD, but just not quite as good as Heated Rivalry by Rachel Reid. they’re only a little similar, but i couldn’t help comparing the two when i was reading this. iced out is still 10000% a 5 star read for me, but there literally isn’t a day that goes by where i don’t think about ilya and shane from HR and i’m dead serious about that. i think maybe ilya and shane had a little more time to show their emotional connection than quinton and oakley because it was longer. idk i’m gonna stop rambling now
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bumping this up to 5 stars upon reread bc the pain is VISCERAL
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bumping this up to 5 stars upon reread bc the pain is VISCERAL
KD Casey is so talented and I looovvveeee how knowledgeable they are about the game of baseball. I always feel like I’m reading a book written by someone who actually played in the MLB.
5 out of 5 stars, 10 out of 10 stars if ya nasty, 100 stars if I could. I have no idea how I'm going to put into words how much I love this book, but I will try my best!!!!!
Summary
Gene Ionescu knows his way around a baseball diamond, top to bottom, inside and out. He basically grew up on one watching his dad play for the Beaverton Beavers, the Portland Lumberjacks's Triple-A minor league team. He was literally made to play--except he wasn't. In his final year on Stanford's baseball team, Gene came out and soon became the first-ever trans man to play professional baseball. He has no plans to play in the majors, it would be silly to even hope for it, but he can lead his team, the Beavers, to the playoffs. But, before the season begins, Gene's former teammate and current target of his one-sided beef is traded to the Lumberjacks. He's not quite sure what it is, but something about Luis Estrada rubs Gene the wrong way. Now Gene has to figure out how to turn his losing-record team into a championship contender while learning to play alongside a man that he has not, can not, and will not ever understand. And maybe Gene will learn that Luis can rub him the right way, too.
My Thoughts
I am a huge baseball fan. I grew up playing softball year-round, my sister plays for the University of Arkansas, and I do not miss a single Houston Astros game if I can help it. You will have to yank bat-on-ball sports out of my cold, dead hands. As soon as I saw this book, just from the cover alone, I knew I was going to love it. And then I read the blurb, and I fell in love with Gene immediately. A trans man playing baseball??? Sign me the fuck up!!! Stories like this are so important, especially right now as lawmakers continuously try to keep trans people from competing in collegiate sports entirely.
I felt so connected to Gene. I cried along with him, I laughed when he laughed, I smiled at what made him smile, I struggled as he did. I see so much of myself and my sister in his journey with accepting and loving himself for who he is and playing to his strengths, not despite his body, but because of it. There's so much expectation as a public figure, and it's very easy to feel pulled in a thousand different directions to do what everybody else wants from you.
There is something so beautiful in learning to live for yourself and not for anyone else. There is sometimes great power in being selfish for the right reasons. I found peace in doing what truly makes me happy, and I'm glad Gene does too. Because it's not a crime to want something, it's not inherently bad or foolish, even if it seems impossible.
KT Hoffman is such an incredibly, insanely, ridiculously talented writer. His characters are so dynamic and serve a true purpose to the story, no matter how small their role is. Each one of his sentences is layered with meaning, and his prose is almost lyrical. I mean LOOK AT THIS!!!!!!!!!!
AND THIS!!!!!!!!!!
THAT IS REAL WRITING!!!!!! THAT IS HOW YOU WRITE A GODDAMN BOOK!!!!!!! I have not read a traditional romance book that has knocked me so completely off my ass as this one did in a very long time. I cannot wait to see what Hoffman publishes next, because if it's even half as good as this one, it will blow me away.
Thank you so so much Penguin Random House, Dial, NetGalley, and KT Hoffman for an advanced reader's copy of this book!!!!
Summary
Gene Ionescu knows his way around a baseball diamond, top to bottom, inside and out. He basically grew up on one watching his dad play for the Beaverton Beavers, the Portland Lumberjacks's Triple-A minor league team. He was literally made to play--except he wasn't. In his final year on Stanford's baseball team, Gene came out and soon became the first-ever trans man to play professional baseball. He has no plans to play in the majors, it would be silly to even hope for it, but he can lead his team, the Beavers, to the playoffs. But, before the season begins, Gene's former teammate and current target of his one-sided beef is traded to the Lumberjacks. He's not quite sure what it is, but something about Luis Estrada rubs Gene the wrong way. Now Gene has to figure out how to turn his losing-record team into a championship contender while learning to play alongside a man that he has not, can not, and will not ever understand. And maybe Gene will learn that Luis can rub him the right way, too.
My Thoughts
I am a huge baseball fan. I grew up playing softball year-round, my sister plays for the University of Arkansas, and I do not miss a single Houston Astros game if I can help it. You will have to yank bat-on-ball sports out of my cold, dead hands. As soon as I saw this book, just from the cover alone, I knew I was going to love it. And then I read the blurb, and I fell in love with Gene immediately. A trans man playing baseball??? Sign me the fuck up!!! Stories like this are so important, especially right now as lawmakers continuously try to keep trans people from competing in collegiate sports entirely.
I felt so connected to Gene. I cried along with him, I laughed when he laughed, I smiled at what made him smile, I struggled as he did. I see so much of myself and my sister in his journey with accepting and loving himself for who he is and playing to his strengths, not despite his body, but because of it. There's so much expectation as a public figure, and it's very easy to feel pulled in a thousand different directions to do what everybody else wants from you.
"People--teammates, coaches, fans, if you have them--watch you when you play, and they expect you to be that same person always. The version of yourself who steps onto the diamond and has all the rules memorized, all the right moves rehearsed. It's hard, sometimes to find the people you don't have to rehearse for."
There is something so beautiful in learning to live for yourself and not for anyone else. There is sometimes great power in being selfish for the right reasons. I found peace in doing what truly makes me happy, and I'm glad Gene does too. Because it's not a crime to want something, it's not inherently bad or foolish, even if it seems impossible.
KT Hoffman is such an incredibly, insanely, ridiculously talented writer. His characters are so dynamic and serve a true purpose to the story, no matter how small their role is. Each one of his sentences is layered with meaning, and his prose is almost lyrical. I mean LOOK AT THIS!!!!!!!!!!
"His mouth is warm and wet, and so is Gene."
AND THIS!!!!!!!!!!
"There, batting ninth, number zero: starting second baseman Gene Ionescu--the name he chose for himself, and the one he inherited from his dad, one stacked atop the other, an announcement and a vote of confidence all in one."
THAT IS REAL WRITING!!!!!! THAT IS HOW YOU WRITE A GODDAMN BOOK!!!!!!! I have not read a traditional romance book that has knocked me so completely off my ass as this one did in a very long time. I cannot wait to see what Hoffman publishes next, because if it's even half as good as this one, it will blow me away.
Thank you so so much Penguin Random House, Dial, NetGalley, and KT Hoffman for an advanced reader's copy of this book!!!!
im truly speechless. like actually this time. i’ve been crying for the past 2 hours. how will i ever move on from this book? THIS should’ve been made into a movie, not call me by your name. i don’t know if i will ever love a book as much as this. nothing will ever move me this much.
i need to stop listening to books at work that i know will make me cry