this book is so, so good.

i cried a lot during multiple parts and if homophobia is a trigger for you, i don’t really recommend you read it. there were some heavy topics throughout and, still, this book made me cackle like books very very rarely ever do.

this was a deeply good book like i can’t even explain. the emotionally complex characters, the way every single one of them was interesting and captivated me.

i saw someone say that this was a Happy For Now book but i was so, so satisfied by how this wrapped up??? sure, not every single detail was wrapped up in a perfect little bow, but such is life????

sure, axton is likely to outlive leander by at least two life spans but that is also… life? as in, to love is to accept to mourn, i always thought.

and dana, i don’t like him, i think he’s very very sick and fucked up, i don’t even sympathize with him, but i don’t have to like someone to have empathy for them.

i wish i could write those kind of reviews that encourage people to read a book, instead of sharing my opinion in a way you have to have read it to to understand what i’m saying— most of all because this book is good.

this book is so good and i am so sad that this author has basically disappeared from the face of the earth. this seems to be quite a strong trait of the indie authors i find and enjoy and that makes me super sad. i actually loved this book so much i’m half a mind to email this author, not knowing if they still check the inbox for the address on the post-script, just to say thanks and say that if they ever feel like publishing again, there’s still a readership out here.

last but not least, finding books that make me feel this way are what make me so happy to be such an avid reader. onwards we go.