I don’t know how to be more clear: I loved this book. I read 10 books in January and this was my favorite.

I have actually only ever seen one season of any Bachelor Nation show (Rachel Lindsey’s season, so I had to support the first Black Bachelorette) because I don’t love reality tv and I find the premise implausible, so I’m unclear why I really like Bachelor remix books (eg this and One to Watch) but I really do.

I really liked the focus on mental health all throughout, the struggle that is figuring out your sexual orientation, the ace/demi/grey discussion, and of course the high drama of any reality tv premise. Mental health/depression/anxiety were an integral part of this book and I loved the thoughtful approach. The writing goes really well back and forth from being achingly tender to dramatic and hilarious and then to introspective.

There are so many little enjoyable moments throughout and these are two of my favorite quotes demonstrating this:
“He catches himself mid-spiral. He tries to refocus on things that calm him: excel spreadsheets, quiet libraries, 1,000 piece puzzles, 90 degree angles. Deep breath.”
“And once [Dev] determines this kiss is worth destroying his entire life for, he decides to make it count.”