ohh i think this was too hyped up for me. GOD did i want to love this because i literally have a signed mf copy!!!!! but i mean i didnt hate this! it just wasnt Amazing. it was great, i had fun, and i cant say more than that.
the plot was decent. i'll say at the start it was quite good, and had me intrigued and trying to work ou the "mystery". i felt like there were almost too many plot twists though, and that resulted in none of them being fully fleshed out, instead leaving me slightly confused with what was going on trying to connect all the plot elements to each other. i'll be honest and say i didnt like a lot of the plot twists, especially the one with the island, but i dont necessarily think they were written poorly, i just think it needed more hints? like more for the audience to latch onto to reach that point themselves? especially surrounding celia's fate, actinium, etc., there really wasnt too much buildup in terms of clues, leaving most reveals to become a 'tell not show', which was disappointing. 
the characters were Um.... 
ok i kinda didnt give a fuck about anyone. after the Big Reveal that happens midway in the story about cee, i stopped having any vested interest in the cast. im not really sure why per say, but idk i was holding out hope based on the mystery surrounding celia, and the minute it was resolved i realised i didnt really like any of the characters 🫣 like kay was fine, but she was quite bland and seemed to have no personality (yes i know thats almost the point but guess what. it doesnt make for a good protag). act seemed... i cant put my finger on it. it kinda reminded me of adam from shatter me. i really cant explain it in any other way. he seemed to be trying to fill every hole in the story - scientist, tech wizz, cool mysterious guy, love interest, etc etc etc. like homeboy was doing too much. cee herself was probably my favourite character, but at like 60% of the book she started pissing me off too with her bullshit with hero. speaking of hero he was.... There! he had no personality. yet again the point but, say it with me, i dont care if its a plot element or commentary or theme, if it makes the book boring, it sucks. and he sucked. there were other minor characters too, but honestly what with Everything going on, i couldnt keep track of what the fuck was happening with kay and cee, let alone these side characters. 
the ending? a nothingburger. it really was like deflating a balloon. it sucked all the air out of the story, and by the last couple chapters i was waiting for this to end.
i think a lot of my issues with this is that it was, a) trying to do too much all at once, and b) i didnt get half of the book. sue me im a DUMB READER!! but seriously i was taking notes!! notes!! and yet i still was lost. i think for once my dumb dumb brain is not my fault, so im gonna blame the book. and im serious when i say my lack of enjoyment easily came from this issue. at the start of the book where only a handful of things were going on, i was loving this! but then by the end of the book when theres 47 different plot elements and 21 plot twists i wasnt having fun because it felt like i was trying to do a quiz whilst blindfolded. Huh.
ugh i really wanted to love this. it sounded so up my alley. and plus i OWN THE SIGNED COPY! I HAVE TO LOVE IT! 
maybe i put too much pressure on myself to enjoy this. or maybe i hyped it up to myself too much. either way im sad i didnt like this more :( i defo will reread this Some Day, and pray i enjoy it more when i know wtf is going on, because i'll tell u this was pretty Meh on a first read :((