Lydia has known Freddie since they were 14. They have been together since then, and now, more than a decade later they are engaged and planning their wedding. On the way to Lydia’s birthday dinner, Freddie and his best friend, Jonah, are in a car accident where Freddie does not survive. Lydia retreats into herself and wallows in self pity. She no longer speaks to Jonah who was her friend first and tries to push away her mother and sister, Elle.

Her mother finally talks Lydia into getting a prescription from a therapist to help deal with her grief. When she finally decides to take one of these pink pills, a strange thing happens. She’s transported to a different life, one where Freddie is still alive and their life together is progressing. Stuck between her real life and this alternate reality will Lydia ever find peace and the strength to move on without Freddie?

This book was quite an emotional roller coaster. I can’t imagine losing the love of my life the way Lydia did. I lost my father a few years ago and know how hard that has been for my mother. To lose your soulmate at any age is unfair and obviously hard to cope with. If there was a pill that could really bring you back to a life with that person would it be worth it though? Lydia learns throughout the book that things that happen in one world affect what happens in the other and not always in a good way.

Some of this book was a struggle for me. I really wanted Lydia to find happiness in her real life and for her to be able to move on, but not having lost someone like this I can’t 100 percent relate. Jonah was my favorite character, and I loved his friendship with Lydia, especially from when they were kids. I wanted them to rely more on each other while dealing with their shared grief. It was frustrating how they kept pushing each other away, but understandable as well.

I loved the way the author was able to bring it all together although I didn’t love how Freddie was portrayed towards the end. It seemed like it was an easy way to help tie things up. I couldn’t have been happier though with the ending. Overall this was a great story, and I haven’t read something like it before.

Thank you NetGalley and Ballantine Books for an advanced copy in exchange for my honest review.