If there was ever a book that felt like it was written solely for me, this would be it. 

"What God? Tonight, you only scream and cry for me. No God will bear witness to what i make of you."

Leave Me Behind by @k.m.moronova features all of my very favourite things. 

💀Enemies to lovers/still Enemies to obsession
💀Blood play
💀Spit play
💀Pain kink
💀Non-con
💀Massive amounts of bullying

Bradshaw and Nell are two truly broken, twisted psychos. They enjoy the work they do. They enjoy the hunt and killing, and they are both very good at what they do. They are also both suffering with ptsd. 
They are surrounded by secrets and have both accepted they will be dead sooner rather than later. They are just weapons after all. So what happens when two broken weapons start feeling things again? Carnage, blood and lots of dead bodies.

"I want to dominate you. I want to break you into a million pieces and make you answer only to me. I want to keep you as far away from my squad as possible before I ruin what's left of you."

See, isn't he fucking perfect!!! 

One of my favourite things about reading indie authors is the level of detail and love that goes into their books. 
From the cover, to the layout and art throughout, they really go above and beyond and it really turns reading into a fully immersive experience. 
The chapters are labelled with the name of whose POV it is. Having some titled Bones and others Bradshaw even though they are they same person was such a cool detail. It really showed which part of him was running the show. 

Also the author does all her own art.

So this arrived Thursday, I read the entire thing Thursday night and I've just finished another couple of books so I think its time to reread it.