4.5 ☆

My review is probably going to be as the book is written... total confusion at the beginning and an explanation by the end with even more questions...
I just don't know where to start :)

This book was sitting on my shelf for no good reason other than my overwhelming buying of new books and being a mood reader. Every book has the right time to be read and I finally picked it up :)

The author does such an amazing job of showing us a world with disrupted nature, fallen cities, and a complex magic system that is the essence of energy shifting, of deep and raw human emotions of not belonging somewhere, being scared from, and at the same time being needed for the survival.

The world-building is one of the most developed ones that I have read so far, and so rich with descriptions that even though it is all confusing at the beginning, by the end of the book you understand everything and it all fits so perfectly into the story.
The magical thing about it is that you are unaware of how it all came up clearly since there are no drastic revelations about the magic system itself. It all felt organic and perfectly shaped into a world that is, I believe, just scratching the surface.
The wow moments and the big revelations are all regarding the characters and their stories. Each and every one of them is carrying a piece of the puzzle that presents all of the missing pieces that were confusing at the start.
Masterwork!

The hard times of the fifth season are presented so real, and I truly believe that real events were an inspiration for some of the story, and if you look deeper, it is not solely about the hard environment, the loss of people, or places to live. It is about the wrongness that people bring to each other, the way that the connection between the child and the mother is brutally disregarded, and families are afraid of their own children...I could go on and on. Each chapter is a punch in the gut, with its answers and its new questions. The biggest question of them all ...how do you find the strength to do some things that you know will hurt as hell and leave a mark for a lifetime...?

This is a book that can hardly be summarised. All the questions are keeping you at the edge of wtf is happening! The characters are not heroes, they are flawed like every other person, and "learning from your own mistakes" is a thing, a real thing... only when you reach rock bottom you can learn in which direction you should go. Each of the relationships between the characters has such a unique start, something that you could not relate to in your lifetime, but then again, it is written so well that you feel like you do.

Even now, writing this, there is so much I would tell but I`m not finding a good way of expressing it. This is a book that leaves you feeling a lot, and question a lot. All I can say is that it had a rough start but it was worth reading it. It is a unique world with magic but with the flaws of humanity.

As I said...if you reached this far with the review :)...my review is like the book, chaos, but when you reach the end you understand it and want to know more...need to know more.

So, the next book is awaiting!