I just
I don't even know how to rate this book
I had such high hopes

[EDIT]
Okay so I've recovered a bit by now.
maybe I was a bit harsh before. I guess I was just completely shaken up by the ending.
I really did like the writing style of this book, it just had an amazing way of making the reader see things. it was just the ending that completely freaked me out. Really, I think there's a lot the can be learned from this book.
I guess the weirdest thing for me was that for the only time in my life, I finished a book wishing that I could forget all those amazing characters I came to love.