this is my child, oh my god, i think i found my child. where do i begin?

i started this book with low expectation, a cozy, heartwarming book just like the cerulean sea. and i mean it has its heartwarming moments but this book is clearly more than that. this was such a rollercoaster, i swear, one moment i'm laughing, then the next i'm bawling my eyes out. i became so invested in this book and its characters. i laughed with them, and cry with them. saying goodbye to this book hurts. 

another is this book is such an eye-opener to me. one of the quotes that i really love is

'we don't always see what's right in front of us, much less appreciate it. it's not until we look back that we find what we should have known all along.'

'we live and we breathe. we die and we still feel like breathing. it's not always the big deaths either. there are little deaths, because that's what grief is.'

i learned and reflect a lot about myself reading this book. it made me realize death can come to anyone without them knowing. these lessons about doing something before it's too late. i mean i know this before, but like this book is like a wake up call. also as someone who hasn't really experienced grieving, and doesn't know how others truly felt when they are grieving, this was such a good read. it really made me understand them, their feelings, more through this book.

overall, this book is definitely going to my tbrr (to be reread, if that's even a thing) list