Lydia Bird's life is exactly how she likes it. She has a great relationship her family, she loves her house (and her fancy bed), she lives in the town she grew up in with her fiance, Freddie, who she has been in love with since they were teens. When Freddie dies unexpectedly, Lydia's life is thrown into complete turmoil. She can't seem to find the will to move forward without him, and in the interim she is prescribed sleeping pills so she can at least rest. However, Lydia learns that when she takes a sleeping pill she is taken to a reality in which Freddie never died, in which nothing had to change. As time moves forward and Lydia's waking life continues on, she must decide what path to take: the "dream life" she may have been expecting or the real life full of people who need her- namely herself.

Let me start by taking a big cathartic sigh and saying this: Wow. I felt for Lydia. I felt all the feelings: happy, worried, concerned, gut wrenchingly sad. Josie Silver did a terrific job in making even side characters complex people you wanted to know more about.

There were several points in this book when I applauded Lydia for her sheer ability to keep going when I honestly don't know if I could. I feel like her character was so rounded out and believable, it was like the story was based on real events. I found myself ugly crying several times because my heart just could not take the pain she was in and I was so proud of her on so many occasions.

Based on the synopsis I read before starting this book I expected a romance, but the book focuses more on the progression of Lydia's grief as well as the way time will inevitably change things. I really loved the point made that people can have more than one happy ending.

In sum, this book was fantastic. I will absolutely be reading more by Josie Silver and am very thankful to have had the opportunity to read this book. Thank you to NetGalley and Ballantine for a copy of this ARC in exchange for my honest review.