4.5 stars

CW: rape, sexual assault, victim blaming, sexism

This is a raw and truly compelling novel.

The characters are flawed and deeply realistic — even the side characters are developed and important — and each one fights their own battles and tries to come to terms with losing someone they trust. All around, the development is exquisite.

All of the relationships are complex: familial, platonic, romantic. There’s a love triangle between the protagonist, her ex-girlfriend, and her brother’s best friend, and while it’s significant it isn’t overwhelming. While Mara and Alex were sweet together, I loved Mara and Charlie. They just clicked and they’re an amazing couple; after everything, I’m glad they work it out.

The discussions throughout are incredibly nuanced in order to suit our society. In addition to rape and sexual assault, this book tackles sexism, the patriarchy, queerness, and gender identity. Nothing is black and white, and much of the story explores these gray areas.

Although to me personally it didn’t quite feel like a 5 star read, this novel is beautiful inside and out, albeit heart-wrenching, and I absolutely recommend it to everyone that can handle the content. Ashley is quickly becoming one of my favorite authors.