This is one of the most intense books I have ever read. I REALLY appreciate the way the author created a splintered story/writing style that reflects the shattered face of the protagonist. However, something about it just didn't connect with me on a certain, necessary, level. Sadly, I couldn't get as invested as I wanted to. That does not change that fact that the book was HEAVY and the author's exploration of Sean's present and past, the workings of his mind, were fantastically done. I think this really hits it's mark in one major way - the "why" of things. All we ever want, as survivors or outsiders or witnesses, is to know that why behind people's actions. And really there may not be one. Even the person themselves could not say why, as Sean cannot here. And I think that speaks volumes. The explanation we always seek may not just be hidden, it may not be anywhere at all. This is demonstrated again with the side story of Carrie and Lance, their decision to make Trace Italian real, and the disastrous results. Why they did that, that answer the parents are looking for, the reason Sean is called to court, it may not exist. And that, more than anything, it what makes this book so special, so piercing. I really do recommend this book highly - it deeply and truthfully explores a subject that I think many people would benefit from experiencing. But it is not an easy read, so I caution future readers as well.