“He says and does the dirtiest shit. Like the other night he spat in my mouth, and I was so shocked I just said thanks.”

Good lord.

“I’m not the same little girl who wanted his affection. Now I wish he’d choke on his own dick half the time—the other half I wish I was choking on his dick.”

GOOD LORD

“I’m nervous, too. I’m probably better at railing you than I am dating you.”

This was spicy af but also so emotional and well done! 4.5 stars

“Best cucumber I’ve ever eaten. Hands fucking down.” IYKYK 😂 but you can probably guess if you don’t know 😂 

There were spicy scenes that I’ve never read before and I am dead from them 😂 I thought Tristian and Bea had great chemistry and I loved their hate for each other, it just made it so much better.

“Maybe something to consider in the future. Some people spend their lives chasing dreams. I’ve spent mine chasing financial stability,” she says softly.

Tristan and Bea were both experiencing the side effects of childhood trauma, abandonment/verbal abuse and poverty. I thought both of these traumas were portrayed really well. I was, like anxious, with Tristian at times, even when he was being a dick, so I appreciate that depth to his character.

“My heart aches. I wish he could admit that he cares. But Tristan is a broken boy living inside an angry man, and I can’t fix that.”

Tristan and his anger issues, his anxiety, his commitment issues, were well grounded in his childhood without being in your face and you felt his pain and anxiety as triggers came up. He knew that he was taking it too far at points but he didn’t have a coping mechanism in place and didn’t know how to stop. Bea with her obsessive budgeting was so real, I felt that hard. I was emotional.

“Fucking Tristan.” Hammer shakes her head. “Only he would send you a basket of dick-shaped vegetables as an apology. That’s what this is, right? An apology basket?”

Flip to an extent was also worried about his money from their childhood, but honestly, I need to see more character growth from him because right now he’s just a fuckboy douche most of the time. He had some nice moments near the end, but Helena, I need some more of him (he’s getting a book right? RIGHT!?*sobs*). I also always love the girl friendships that are in Helena's books, they are so comforting and I love women supporting women.

“You don’t want my attention, Beat.” His voice is soft and menacing, sending a shiver down my spine. “I promise you, you’re playing with fire, and I will fucking incinerate you.”

If you like:
- Hand necklaces
-🍆 in the first chapter
- Hair pulling
- Produce experimentation
- Best friends little sister
- Roommates and forbidden-ness
- Spice. Spice everywhere
- Hockey romance
- “You might want to hold on.”
- They hate each other

“I head for my room and close the door, then glare at my semi-erect cock. “Fuck you for getting excited.”

Thank you so much to the author for providing me with an ARC!