I think this is four stars for me? I'm conflicted, not because the book wasn't good but because the story matter was difficult. I find true crime books uncomfortable to read, especially ones that detail violence towards women. If this book had had less descriptions of the victims, I think I would have enjoyed it more. As it was, I appreciated the author's honesty in expressing the various difficulties he had and has when it comes to his job. It does frustrate me that he never seems to actually try to get better, even to the detriment of his family. I never would have picked this up for myself (it was a book club pick), but I'm not mad at having read it.