After the painful ending of Restore Me, the painful reminder of Shadow Me, I didn't know whether I was really ready for this book, or if it was my unconditional love for the characters that made me start it the moment e-books could be downloaded, because I clearly couldn't wait for my physical copy to arrive. Whatever the reason for my impatience was I started reading this, and hated myself yet again for being so eager to feel the pain all over again. Page after page, chapter after chapter, it was anxiety that lead me through the story. What will happen to Juliette? Can I still call her that? What is with Warner? Where is he? What is Kenji going to do? What about Sector 45? Questions. So many questions, and I got slapped hard, with the answers I was not anticipating.

We already discover some truths about Juliette's past in the end of Restore Me, and it left me shocked, and unready for more. But Defy Me doesn't take care of my weak heart, and ignites one bomb of truth after another. We find out a lot about Juliette's past, and especially how exactly it is connected to Warner's. We find out about The Reestablishment's plans. We find out about all the children from the supreme courts. We. Find. Out. A. LOT!

I really don't want to let myself tell to much about this book, other than it made me suffer, and made up for it. Really made up for it. In a good way.

I don't know what it is about these books. The first three books were an all-time favorite of mine for years, reading book 4 and 5 makes me love all about this story, these characters, the writing even more. I think I will never be able to let go of this series. Never.

And to be honest, I've spent my days after finishing this in my Warner-hole. Yup. In case you need further explanation. I fell down a hole, into Warner-Wonderland, and now my mind is all occupied by him. Warner. Warner. Warnerwarnerwarnerwarnerwarner. It's book five, and I'm still hopelessly in love with him.