Hello! I read some other people's reviews and it made me insecure of the words I put here, so here is the summary, which could be triggering in regards to self harm:
- As someone who has had to talk someone down from committing suicide and as someone who has gone through years of character development as to stop blaming myself for every cut that appeared, the entire concept of leaving tapes that blame people for your suicide? Was a really big no.
- This book portrays suicide as the ultimate revenge and as the ultimate way to solve your problems. And that is a very slippery slope that a lot of us go down, so: things are bad now but they sometimes have ridiculous ways of getting better. If you make it through this night, there will be a new day, and with a new day comes new potential for it to get better. Distracting yourself helps. Talking - about anything with anyone, but about the weight you feel as well - helps. Get through the night and then get through the next, and keep going until it is better. Sure, it can't get worse if you're dead but neither can it get better. Stay alive, please. I would be sad if you were gone.
- H O W E V E R. Anyone who liked this book or related to the characters - I understand and you do not owe anyone an explanation of why. We should be able to just like and dislike things without elaborate reasons why.
- This book was a big step forward for its time and everyone, whether they liked or disliked the book, will be able to walk away with the message that: you don't know how much something that is small to you could affect someone's life. Now, don't start thinking of how not noticing someone wanted to get your attention 5 seconds earlier than you did. It's ok - you could talk to them first tomorrow, or you could stop to say hi to that girl you see who's always lagging behind her friends. Little things, you know.
In conclusion, the effect this book had on me was negative but that doesn't mean that it will for you too. As long as you keep a clear head through it, read it all you want.