can’t quite process this book enough for a proper review! but i will say that i liked a lot about this book, including the unique writing. i just had some problems with the pacing as a whole, and some of the characters’ development. now, here are my favourite quotes from it: 

“it’s confusing- how your heart holds your love and your hurt in the same chamber.”

“if you wanna make poor choices, do it in your own name. not theirs. don’t dishonour them.”

“but aren’t we all dying slowly, painfully? why should the earth be exempt? but i don’t say these things. ask these questions. because they’re not real. they’re just by-products of heartache and regret, anger and disappointment. because i believe in her and her dreams, maybe, probably, even more than my own. because at least she dares to dream, and who was i to punch holes in them?”

“when you leave someone, even if you see the error of your ways, even if you apologize profusely, it doesn’t matter. they don’t owe you forgiveness. they don’t have to take you back.”

“i want to make up for lost time... prove i’m a good person, a better person than i would appear to be, because look, here i am doing something brave, taking a chance, keeping it real, doing the thing. but maybe i don’t get to throw up on the side of this road and feel better, light. maybe keeping this trash inside is the price for my mistakes.”

“and then she, like everyone before her, is gone. because, sooner than later, everyone leaves this house.”

“maybe the lesson from all of this is, sometimes what we see as broken, isn’t... you’re only helpful to someone if what you do actually helps.”

“because as it turns out, we do not have all the time in the world. we only get a finite amount. live each day like it’s your last four hours.”

“it’s hard to let go, even when you know it’s coming.”

“you can die and still live on. you can be alive but be consumed by death. the difference between living and being alive is: everything.”

“this is what it feels like to find something you’ve lost- happiness.”