Very disturbing... but it's supposed to be like that. Can't exactly say I enjoyed this book, but I was certainly pulled into the story, enough to read it super fast because I jus had to know what happened next! I'd say it's pretty immersive and well written, and the way it ended definitely has me interested in reading the next book in the series. But yeah, it's pretty uncomfortable, and sad; if you've read it and hated it, I totally understand why. Wouldn't recommend it to everyone.