The contents of this book do not line up well with the blurb. Much of the first half sounds like suicidal ideation through the quotes from the different organizations that advocate for individuals who want to die at the time they choose. At points throughout the first half of the book, there's straight up advice. The narration is disjointed, and I feel that this would have been better written as a memoir about the author's constant feeling of invisibility and her fascination with suicide, and a brief publication about her research into Rey Rivera's death. Otherwise, if it had been written as her investigation followed by a section of reflection, this would have been more easily consumable. One thing the blurb gets right is that this book is incredibly voyeuristic. I'm somewhat uncomfortable in having read this.