“Aloneness” is not a word, but Stacy uses it almost every page. And this one needed a tighter content edit - there are many misplaced modifiers and repetitive sentences/scenes as well as some subject/verb agreement problems and odd sentence construction that a good edit could fix.

 IDK but reading about a woman who poses as a man because her mom needed to provide an heir for her dad and who has kept up this ruse for 23 years THROUGH COLLEGE while also very much being a woman to be found out by a man who had to literally spend a decade with a wolf pack from (checks notes) her SMELL, is just oddly icky to me.