content warnings: gaslighting, suicide, issues of consent, harassment, infidelity, grief, death, tragic house fire

This book is a pile of garbage in every way imagineable. Honestly, I don't really want to go into it too much because I just listened to this entire audiobook in one day and it took a lot out of me so I'll give you the highlights:

- The audiobook narrators weren't great. Like, they're fine when speaking as their characters but when they do voices for other characters it's hella cringey
- I don't mind problematic media, as long as it's entertaining, and with very few exceptions this wasn't
- The writing was fine?? I guess???
- I hated the romance, and this entire book hinges on that so :/
- Ben is a fuckboy and he can choke
- Fallon's entire arc is dependent on Ben telling her that she's beautiful (which is lowkey ironic when you know the ~~twist~~)
- Also, Ben gave me real Wilhell (from SKAM) vibes, especially in the scene towards the start with the dress
- I'm convinced no one in Fallon's life cares about her because they all are totes cool with her fucked up relationship
- They're literally saying they love each other even tho they've only known each other for less than three days wtf guys
- Their third Nov. 9 was real weird
- Ben's tragic backstory is Garbage
- The plot twists are bullshit
- There's literally a part where CoHo is justifying her plot twist to the audience and it's done without any subtlety
- There is no fucking way that Fallon's mum is crying for that douche canoe after reading that fucking manuscript
- Tbh, if you love soaps (as my Emmerdale-lovin' heart does) and you know the big spoilers of this book, you'll probably find some enjoyment in the drama, but otherwise don't waste your time