I simply could not enjoy this book no matter how much I tried. The writing was fantastic and I give props to Ottessa wholeheartedly. This book just didn't resonate with me. I found it difficult to follow the character, I found it impossible to enjoy anyone or anything being talked about and the main characters abuse of meds was incredibly off-putting. I do believe this could have been better published as a novella, as the substance and repetition did also play a huge part in why I could not finish this book.