This book is so viscerally upsetting that I needed to finish it ASAP just to escape the universe.

A few years ago, I identified helplessness as being the most difficult emotion for me to cope with. Striving towards a goal but having the goalposts change, all your actions and words misconstrued, and seeing no realistic options other than failure all lead me to a pit of despair. That's what this book felt like. I deeply empathized with the main character and the emotional torture she experienced throughout the book. I read on in horror. Because of the above, this is straight up one of the most upsetting books I've ever read.

And I guess it says a lot about me that that's the reason I consider this a five star read.