Overall: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (If I had rated this within the first 25-30% I would have given 1-2 stars 😮)
Readability: 📖📖📖 (I struggled so hard with the beginning and didn’t want to read it anymore. But I kept going and about halfway through I was hooked)
Feels: 🦋🦋🦋🦋
Emotional Depth: 💔💔💔
Sexual Tension: ⚡⚡ ⚡ (It’s hard for me to rate this – because of the rape early in the book setting a tone...but it did build a bit back up for me)
Romance: 💞💞💞 (Oh gawd – this is like toxic AF romantic...like codependent, over the top obsessed...but also things very not romantic happen in the first half...anti romantic things lol. But if you’re into masochism and sadism you will appreciate it more)
Sensuality: 💋💋💋💋 (I really liked the later scenes)
Sex Scene Length: 🍑🍑🍑🍑
Steam Scale (Number of Sex Scenes): 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Humor: Just a touch
Perspective: First person from hero and heroine (and a small part from a few side characters (I think heroine’s mother and hero’s father)
More character focused or plot focused? character
How did the speed of the story feel? medium to fast
When mains are first on page together: almost immediately
Cliffhanger: No, this ends with a happy for now for our psychos
Epilogue: the first one is 3 months later, the second one is 2 years later
Format: listened to an audiobook from the library (Hoopla)
Why I chose this book: I can’t recall exactly how I came across it?? I think maybe just searching audiobooks on hoopla.
Mains: This is a M/F relationship between a cisgendered hero and heroine – I don’t believe they identify as bi but both mentioned experimenting with both sexes.

Eyes on me when I fuck you, baby.

Should I read in order?
This is the first of Kent’s Legacy of Gods series.

Basic plot:
Glyndon meets her worst nightmare on the edge of a cliff.

Give this a try if you want:
- contemporary romance
- mostly UK setting with a minor scene in America (New York)
- college setting – their schools are rivals
- good girl/bad boy
- sociopath hero
- enemies to lovers
- obsessed, stalker hero
- masquerade
- dark elements including death, murder, suicide, threats, and rape of the heroine by the hero
- kink elements including cruelty, sadism, masochism, choking, somnophilia, primal play, masked hero
- higher steam – 7ish full scenes (8 if you count the beginning rape scene...)

Ages:
- heroine is 19, didn’t catch hero but I think he’s similar or just a touch older

First line:
Disasters start of black nights.

My thoughts:
Wow. This book really threw me for a loop. I despised the beginning. I really just felt so icky reading it and I wanted to stop immediately. It was hard to read, for me, the level of cruelty and disgust and fear in the beginning scene. I didn’t think the book would be able to recover for me. I didn’t see how I could forgive or get any kind of good feelings after how I felt in that first 15%.

But...but I kept going. And I DID fall. I hated this book. Then I started to love it. And then I hated that I loved it. And then I accepted that I was eating up so many of these scenes.

Now, sadism and masochism are really not my thing. I can like a lot of kink elements but these usually just aren’t for me and this book is chocked full of those aspects. But as we got more from the heroine’s POV, and how she was loving these acts with him, and his POV was so over the top obsessed I was loving it.

This is a toxic, codependent relationship at its finest and I loved so many aspects of it. Definitely not for everyone but I am glad I stuck through. Thought I’m not sure I would read the rest of the series. I think I need something just a bit different direction for my darker reads. This was a touch much for me overall.

Few random reading stats for this author
# of books read: This is my first
Average rating from me: 4 stars
Favorite book: This one

Endearments

  He calls her ‘little rabbit’ and ‘baby’.

Content warnings: These should be taken as a minimum of what to expect. It’s very possible I have missed some.

- rape of the heroine by the hero
- cruelty on page, threats, manipulation, mind games
- murder, suicide, suicide ideation, violence
- a few minor scenes of weed and alcohol usage
- car accident, kidnapping and torture of hero on page

Author content warnings? Didn’t notice any on audio

Locations of kisses/intimate scenes, safe sex aspects, consent, pregnancy/child in the story:

 
Safe sex: 

  heroine is on birth control, hero always used a condom with everyone else, but not with her (of course) and has been celibate for 2 months 

 
How’s the consent? 

  Oh it’s so bad. Don’t read this one if you need consent. The opening scene is the hero raping the heroine 

 
Pregnancy/children in story? 

  No pregnancy or children, but mention of future babies, hero mentions getting her pregnant just to bind her to him, and ‘filling her with his babies’ in the future 

 
Chapter 2 – ‘hero’ (antihero???) rapes the heroine orally – forced bj on the cliff
Chapter 9 – 🔥 fingering for her in the car
somewhere between 10 and 14 there’s a partial fingering scene
Chapter 16 – 🔥 nipple play, bj to 69
Chapter 21 – 🔥 fingering for her, missionary with choking
Chapter 22 – 🔥 oral for her
Chapter 26 –🔥 fingering for her, he takes her bent over the bathroom counter
Chapter 29 – 🔥 sex
Chapter 32 – 🔥 fingering for her, anal sex
Chapter 43 – 🔥 fingering for her, sex against the tree

Total chapters: 44