read this in two hours...was just completely mesmerized

its one of those books that reminds you that reading is activism! art is activism! vulnerability, the courage to write this and be vulnerable with everyone that reads it is activism!!!!! 

i love love love his writing style. theres music and jazz and art and dance and photography and love and trauma and the feeling of being seen, the feeling of being looked at and the realities of being a black man. there is being loved and being vulnerable and holding grief. he has such a beautiful way with words, i love the repetitiveness and the parallels, every paragraph and page refers to another and it all comes full circle. 

i have no words to describe this book. as he says "language is flimsy, language fails us, always"