DNF’d around 100 pages and then skimmed through the rest of the book. Normally I wouldn’t rate something I didn’t finish, but I feel very secure in saying that there is no way this book would’ve gotten more than 1 star from me. I bought this book because I saw the high average rating on Goodreads, but forgot to take into account that there are less than one hundred ratings at this time.

I do not understand the four and five star ratings for this book. It’s so bad. I mean, everyone has their own opinion and what works for one person may not work for another. I get that. But I couldn’t find one redeeming quality to this book. Not a single one.

What I liked:

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What I didn’t like:

1. The writing is simplistic to the point of amateurish. This is especially true when considering the dialogue. It’s so cringy and inauthentic. Our main character and her boyfriend are so incredibly cheesy, I just can’t.

Example:

MC (main character) and BF (boyfriend) are on a Ferris wheel

MC: Good thing I’m not scared of falling from here.

BF: I’ve already fallen...for you. (Ellipses are the author’s, not mine)

MC: Oh my gosh.

BF: I’ve waited so long to kiss you. This makes everything perfect. I never want any of it to change.

MC: I agree.

BF: I love your long dark hair. I love the curve of your neck. I love the way you smell.

MC: (after friends urge them to kiss) I never want to kiss in front of them, or anyone. I want it to be something special that you and I share.

🤢🤮🤢🤮🤢🤮

That’s just a snippet of the awful dialogue. And the expositional parts of the book aren’t any better. It is just a series of actions with very little description and it’s just plain bad.

2. This whole story is supposed to take place in the course of a few days. Literally the day after she totals her car and kills one of her friends she is out hanging out with a new group of people while her boyfriend (who she said earlier in the book she never wanted to be apart from) and best friend are still recovering in the hospital. I’m just saying, if it were me, socializing would be the last thing on my mind. Even if I wasn’t being allowed to see my friends I still wouldn’t be able to go hang out with a bunch of people.

Also, for someone who was so in love with her boyfriend, it doesn’t take her long to get all twitterpated with a different guy. Seriously though, on August 28th they are madly in love. By September 1st, she’s saying that he couldn’t stick with her through the tough times and how Plug (hate that nickname. Hate it.) has always been there for her and blah, blah, blah. She’d literally been hanging out with him for less than a week. Give me a flippin’ break! She tries to blame it on all the shit going on around her, but in the end admits that she actually cared about him aside from all the freaky nonsense.

3. Potentially harmful conversations about mental illness. At one point the main character questions whether she could possibly be schizophrenic because of all the things that are happening to her. Her new love interest tells her, “It’s not. Western medicine wants you to think it is. So you’ll buy their pills and stay within the boundaries of their
system—“ I feel like it’s really irresponsible the way this author and this book treats mental illness like it doesn’t really exist. It does.

4. The ending and ‘twists’ weren’t interesting at all. Not gonna say anything because of spoilers, but the end was just as bad as the beginning and middle.

Don’t waste your time and don’t be tricked by all the four and five star reviews. This book is not worth it.