This book has been on my tbr since it came out. It took forever for me to get my hands on a copy since my library sucks and didn't have a physical or an ebook version. I will say that I hyped up this book a lot in my head, and ended up not loving it as much as I was expecting.

I did really love the asexual rep and seeing Tash struggling with explaining how she feels to her friends and figuring out how she fits into the world in general. There were a lot of relatable aspects and her wondering if she was maybe broken or something was wrong with her was so sad.

But there were a few things that did annoy me. I had to remind myself that Tash and her friends are teenagers. But despite knowing that they're young and still learning and making mistakes and bad decisions (not that adults don't also do these things), I did find Tash to be annoying and self-obsessed sometimes. The fame did go to her head, and she treated the people around her awfully. The thing that bothered me a lot was her relationship with Jack. It seemed a bit toxic at times, and Jack's reactions were explained as "just the way she is." Tash was terrible to Jack and Paul, but they also weren't great towards her. Jack accusing Tash of confusing Paul was a huge turn off for me, especially since Tash is still trying to figure things out. But at the same time the way Tash reacted to Paul's confession was also not great. I guess they're all pretty messy and it was frustrating to see that, considering how close they all are to each other.

The whole childhood friends to "lovers" thing left me not knowing how to feel. I could see that things were maybe headed that way, but the second Paul confessed to Tash, I knew that things would end up terribly between Tash and Thom. It almost felt like the whole Paul-has-always-had-feelings-for-Tash plot line was added as a result of what would happen with Thom, so Tash would have someone to end up with? And Tash seemed very confused about her feelings for Paul the entire book. She thought of him as a brother and very close friend, and yeah they're super touchy, but I liked that aspect of their friendship and liked how the book was normalizing platonic affection. At the same time, I do have a soft spot for friends to lovers, only because the idea of being in a relationship with someone who you're already comfortable with and knows you, sounds a lot more appealing than some random person. And the ending there with Paul and Tash deciding to try things out and see how things go was actually really sweet. I loved the line from Paul where he says that he would rather hug her than be with all the other girls he's been with. That was just really sweet, and honestly left me feeling not too upset with how things ended up. It also is a hopeful ending for anyone who is asexual, knowing that they might find someone out there who is willing to compromise and take their feelings into consideration.

The whole plot line with Claudie felt off? Like I didn't understand why Claudie was acting the way she was. I get the pressure she felt and how high her parents' expectations were, but it felt weird that her parents did nothing while seeing her go off and get drunk and sabotaging herself. They were just like "meh, she'll get over it" and we didn't really get a conclusion with all of that. It was more like Claudie acted out, finally told Tash she feels a lot of pressure, and then went back to how she was before the summer. It was just weird.

Overall, I did enjoy some parts of this, but it wasn't as incredible as I was hoping it would be. Still really glad I picked it up though.