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Rating: 3/5

Publication Date: November 13th, 2018

Genre: YA Contemporary

Recommended Age: 15+ (survivor’s guilt, tragedy, regret, grief, mature scenes, romance) (trigger warning for rape and murder)

Pages: 416

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Synopsis: I was one of five. The five girls Kyle texted that day. The girls it could have been. Only Jamie--beautiful, saintly Jamie--was kind enough to respond. And it got her killed.

On the eve of Kyle's sentencing a year after Jamie's death, all the other "chosen ones" are coping in various ways. But our tenacious narrator is full of anger, stuck somewhere between the horrifying past and the unknown future as she tries to piece together why she gets to live, while Jamie is dead.

Now she finds herself drawn to Charlie, Jamie's boyfriend--knowing all the while that their relationship will always be haunted by what-ifs and why-nots. Is hope possible in the face of such violence? Is forgiveness? How do you go on living when you know it could have been you instead?

I felt this story was okay. The characters were interesting and the plot was developed. The premise behind this book is really intriguing as well and I think it’s worth a read if you’re interested.

However, I feel that the book was really really confusing. I got lost in the world constantly and I feel that the writing style didn’t help my confusion. The book really frustrated me and at the end I just skimmed over a lot of this book.

Verdict: It’s worth the read if you can get through the text.