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Clockwork Princess by Cassandra Clare
5.0

This book d e s t r o y e d me. Currently still crying. Highly recommend.

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Books 1 and 2 in this series were a solid 4 stars, but book 3 truly is the crown jewel. The stakes in this novel were astronomical. The way these characters had seemingly coasted through the plot up until this point just made the actions and consequences of this novel feel that much more brutal and excruciating to sit through.

I've left the review spoiler free up until this point. Here is my warning. Past this point there will be spoilers.


Part of me didn't believe Jem died. I didn't cry when Will felt his mark bleed, and the cord snap. Even when we saw the characters in the Institute the next day with red, puffy eyes, I refused to believe he was gone. When I found out later that he became a Silent Brother instead, it broke my heart for Will, and for Tessa. For some reason my brain never allowed that outcome to be a contender or a real possibility.

Will's journey to Tessa is what epic fantasies are made of. I love a good, grueling, heart wrenching journey. I'm so glad Balios (his horse) survived or I would have quit reading right then and there. Will and Tessa's reunion in the mountain was hundreds of pages in the making, and absolute perfection (even if it was fade to black - I get it, YA rating).

I could have come out of this novel with a totally different perspective if it had ended with the proposal. Knowing Jem was a Silent Brother was still a knife in the heart, but at least they had each other; Will and Tessa.

But Clare couldn't leave well enough alone, and she had to add an Epilogue, which I'm normally thrilled to read. When I tell you I sobbed so hard I'm not even sure I read all the words on the page. My glasses were off, my eyes were full of tears, and I saw just enough to see Tessa outlive Will and her children. I saw just enough to see Jem, as a Silent Brother, caring for them both every step of the way, to the extent he was allowed. Only for Tessa to be reunited with a mortal Jem on the last few pages. Knowing she'd watch him die too.

That Epilogue has made me question everything I have ever believed about mortality, immortality, life, death, love, and loss. I will never be the same, and I think I'm thankful for it. I'm still too depressed to know for sure, but nothing could have prepared me for that final chapter. I will think about this story, and these characters, for a very long time.