Uhm. I really hated this. I didn't actually finish this book; I DNFed it about 100 pages from the ending and I just couldn't handle it anymore. I did end up reading the summary of how it ends (which I never do) just because I needed to see if all of these problems were handled properly. I believe they were, which is why it's rated so highly.

Personally, I hate Ryle with every fiber of my being and always have. From that first scene, when he was kicking the shit out of a chair on a rooftop lounge and then proceeded to only be interested in one-night-stands, I hated him. He's too arrogant. In contrast, I loved Atlas from the first scene we met him.

I can't handle reading Ryle's scenes because of the trigger warnings that I should've looked up. This shocked me because I did not think that I would be triggered by domestic violence, but holy mother of god. I got so mad, I ended up throwing the book across the room.

There's a line in here about 'for better or worse' being in their marriage vows, so Lily has an obligation to stay with him (even though he's fucking abusing her). Maybe it was just too close to home because I was sexually abused and assaulted for years. I know this mindset because I had it.

It was just too personal and close to home and I hated it. Usually I love books that are about what I've gone through (even if they're triggering), but not knowing if Ryle was going to win in the end killed me because it looked like it.

I also believe that CoHo really did a disservice to Atlas's character by making his whole story be told through journal entries. I hated that, too. I adore him and his story, but I hated how it was told. She should've given us alternative timeline point of views instead.

I really hated this book and it left my stomach in knots the entire time. I think I'm taking a break from CoHo.