sadly this book didn’t reach “autumn”s enjoyment level either (just as winter didn’t) but it wasn’t bad, j just didn’t love it either.

and with this book i am not sure if it’s me or the book.

did i not enjoy this because it was so strangely abruptly written that it made me feel unsettled and unsure about it all? didn’t let me connect with the story and characters and just overall felt too strange for me to enjoy?

or is it me that just can’t appreciate this book for its strangeness? for its peculiar writing and open-ended-ness that makes me feel incomplete and frustrated for having spend time reading a book that makes me feel that way.

with ali smith i never know!
she can hit exactly the amount of “mhm that was not what i expected but it was fantastic?” or her books make me feel frustratingly stupid and uneducated feeling as if i am just not smart enough to understand it all, because i can’t seem to really specifically find that hidden underlining meaning of it all, especially the line that has to be connecting all those books together to make it a series!
but because i can’t see it and because i didn’t even enjoy the characters or the plot in this it makes me even more frustrated with it all.


so am i stupid or just not the right reader for this series? or do i need to just let it all come to me? enjoy the words as they are: a poetically told story with no real beginning or ending?

no idea!

what i do know is that i will read summer and hope that this one will not be such a frustrating one as winter and spring were but finally bring me back to the reading level of actually enjoying this series as i experienced it with autumn!