I do not know how to feel about this book. My mind tells me it was a shitty, nonsensical romance, but my heart kinda liked it. 

The action stuff was all written really engagingly, and I've never been so grossed out by descriptions of gore in a book, even though I read a ton of horror. 

I also related to Sloane a lot - I don't think I've ever seen my nervousness around if someone likes me personified so much in a book. 

But this then brings me around to 'golden boy' Rowan, and how much he's shown as the perfect man, even though his behaviour is crazy toxic. I understand the sub/dom kink, but there's a line, and his possessiveness really went over it. That amount of it is just not sexy - one second he's like 'o wow look at Sloane, the sexy serial killer', the next he can't trust her around an already exploded oven?? And that's a pattern that just kept repeating itself - he had no faith in her at all. AND THEN, to make it even worse,

towards the end he just completely believed that Sloane would abandon him like that and side with David?? What an arsehole. Of course she fucking wouldn't, and there was never any indication that she would. She, on the other hand, had every right to be worried Rowan would fuck off, especially with her valid insecurities. Her insecurity is real and makes sense, his just seems like possessive toxic masculinity and woman ownership. He can't even fathom that she's be making things up to save him? Fuck him.

If this was behaviour that was addressed in the book as toxic, it would have been fine, but it was shown as a 'healthy' part of their relationship, when it was anything but. 

So for the rating - would have been a 4, I enjoyed it, but it wasn't a masterpiece or anything. But then we have Rowan the arsehole, so let's bring it down to a 3.25. Feels harsh, but he kinda ruined the book for me.