what’s the opposite of a full-circle moment? half-circle? 180-degree moment? that’s what this book was for me. i retract all previous statements about being a hater, having no love in my rotted heart for bald people, never backing down never what, etc.

can everyone unblock me now.

(deep breath) ronan lynch character of all time he’s gay he’s an asshole he’s catholic he’s got a deep parareligious crush which he represses but is pathetically obvious he’s fucked up he’s like a heart attack that never stopped he’s a dreamer he cares so much he’s a weapon he’s trying to make up for it i’m going to walk off a roof

everyone who ever mentioned this series to me is a terrible person because now i just think about his stupid bald ass all day. and i think about ronangansey and i think about ronan/adam and i think about ronan & blue.

(deep breath again) do you ever think about adam parrish do you ever think about how he was privileged and he did not want to give it up and how all he cared about was his autonomy. because i do. and gansey and blue and their stupid fucking flirting and the way he knows he loves her because he can sleep after he talks to her

i do think that this series’ strength is definitely its character work. i still don’t give a fuck about glendower, the niall lynch crime subplot, or whatever maura was up to. i had to ask to understand what happened with noah and cabeswater at the end; it was messy, but at least everything was wrapped up neatly.

with all that said now i also should talk about henry cheng, whose whole situation was kind of a clusterfuck. to start off — his sudden inclusion into the group was off-putting, and should’ve been developed more. i don’t buy that he and gansey had a gangsey-level connection within, what, two weeks? and stiefvater can take back her shitty excuse for poc rep. making racism a whole inside joke for one of your couples is vile.

i think stiefvater got flack for her lack of diversity and shoehorned him in last minute and her majority-white audience just took it with a smile. fuck that. really you can do better

anyway <33 

sometimes your family is the time-fucked version of a welsh king, a half-tree girl, the hands and eyes of a sentient forest, a ghost, and a gay catholic & that’s beautiful to me.