I desperately wanted this book to be a 5 star, because it had everything I love in books. It had magic, chaotic awkward boys, and adorable dating, but there were some things that didn’t do it for me. To start I will say that I really loved both A.B. and Matthew. I really enjoyed the complexities of both these characters. Being a celebrity with anxiety, while dealing with being out and bi-erasure is complicated and frustrating, but I really loved how A.B. was depicted. I also really enjoyed how Matthew was depicted. He is such a sweet soul, looking for love, and watching him explore his sexuality and his feelings for A.B. was really sweet and totally chaotic.

I loved how real both characters felt. I think the confusion and trying to ignore his feelings Matthew was dealing with felt really authentic to how some people experience their sexuality and discovering their feelings for someone. I also really liked how sure A.B. was that he didn’t want a relationship and how he navigated his feelings about past relationships and his feelings for Matthew.

One thing I think this book suffered from was having too many things going on in one book. For starters, the chapters were divided between A.B. and Matthew’s point of views, but it didn’t always feel like an even divide. Sometimes it felt like there was more focus on one character than the other and it almost felt like one character should have been chosen as the point of view and left it at that. I think there were also a lot of things going on and it made things feel a little bit rushed. A.B. is dealing with a lot personally, Matthew is discovering his sexuality, A.B. is also dealing with celebrity, and Matthew is tackling homophobia in the hockey industry. I think my main issue was that there were so many topics and issues being discussed and focused on that it felt like none of them were not given enough time to develop and progress.

Overall, I did really enjoy this book. I think it would have been a better read for me if a few of the topics were cut down and there was more focus on one topic. Honestly, I think it could have been a good start to a series or duology where one topic was focused on per book. I would absolutely still recommend this to anyone who like urban fantasy, bi awakenings, and boys being cute while falling for each other.