No. No. No. No! It cannot be over. Not yet! Please, give me one more part, one more chapter - I'll settle for one more page. The past 48 hours have been hellish for me. I've been totally consumed by S.J. Watson's Before I Go to Sleep. I listen to it on audio all day: on my way to the gym (4 am), on my way home from the gym (6 am), on my way to work (7 am), at work (8 am - 3:30 pm), on my way home (4 pm), while cooking dinner (6 pm), before bed (8:30 pm)...somehow, someway Watson entrapped me in his literary world and I did not want to escape. Am I, "Ben"? Totally obsessed with Christine Lucas? No. That can't be. Instead, I'm obsessed with S.J. Watson lol. No you cannot apply logic to understanding the behavioral condition explored by Watson, it makes no sense, it's hard to understand because it's hard to believe. No one could really write down everything that happens to them every single day in a single journal and re-read the previous day's notes plus all the notes of the other days and still have a productive day, a day to write in that very journal something other than "Today, I reread the memories of my prior life." But for some reason it does not matter! I don't care that Before I Go to Sleep is scientifically and logically absurd, the book makes no sense. Nonetheless, I'm so caught up in the characters and the story, a psychological thriller, that for a few moments, I, too, wondered if I were an amnesiac. Christine Lucas has to be the most unreliable narrator in the history of fiction writing, but damn if I don't want her to be right, damn if I don't believe her, and damn if I don't trust her. I just want to save her. I know she could be wrong, but I'd run around like a chicken with its head cut off attempting to verify everything she told me, just because I feel so bad for her and because I want her to win at something. It seems like the punishment she suffers is far too great for the sin she committed. Don't you think? Watson seemingly accurately captures the thought process of an amnesiac (who might in other novels simply be deranged or psychotic). Dennis Lehane described Before I Go to Sleep as "Momento [the movie starring Guy Pearce] on crystal meth." And he's right. This is the best thing I've read this year. The best thing I've read in a long time. I feel bad for the author of the next novel I read. I cannot imagine how one could possibly top this. If I could write like S.J. Watson, all I would ever do is write. All day, everyday. No lie no lie no lieee *Drake voice* I would not even speak. I'm anxious for the film, which releases in 2014 (hopefully). Nicole Kidman as Christine Lucas should be bloody fabulous.

This novel is gripping, spellbinding, thought provoking, and terrifying. And I loved it. All of it.