TRIGGER WARNING: This book contains graphic descriptions of rape and self-harm which may be triggering to readers.

I went into this expecting one thing and came out having read the complete opposite of what I was expecting. I thought this would be a fast-paced, suspense filled 'whodunnit' but it turned out to be a very slow read. In fact, by the end I had forgotten that I didn't know who had raped Jenny because I didn't really feel that was where the book was going.

My main issue with this book was that I just hated the narrator. The book is narrated by Jenny's therapist, Alan. I didn't enjoy reading this from his point of view. I thought he was an egotistical narrator and I found that I simply didn't care for him and it stopped me from creating the connection to the other characters in the books. I would have liked to see more POVs in the book: a few chapters from Jenny, Tom or Charlotte would have made this a lot more interesting to me. To me it also felt as though there were many paragraphs (sometimes sections of chapters) that were completely irrelevent and I found myself skimming over some parts - something I NEVER do.

The story itself was interesting. A young girl who was brutally raped in the woods who then underwent memory erasing therapy. This is the story of how Jenny is trying to get her memories back so that she can move on with her life. With a different narrator and writing style, I think I would have liked this but I just can't get past the narrative style. It wasn't for me. The ending wove together neatly and I hadn't figured out the identity of the rapist but also didn't feel blown away by the reveal.

I have to note that there are some extremely graphic descriptions of sexual violence and rape in this book. There were several paragraphs where I felt wholly uncomfortable in reading this book and it definitely won't be something for everyone. The descriptions of attempted suicide were also very graphic and would be incredibly overpowering for many readers.

There's no denying that this is a book which took a lot of research and I'm sure there will be plenty of readers who enjoy it. It just wasn't for me.

Thanks to Netgalley, the author and publisher for my free copy in exchange for an honest review.