At some point I’ll stop crying long enough to write a review but tonight is not going to be that night. I love Shane and Ilya SO GODDAMN MUCH.

Actual review: okay I still don't have coherent words to write how much I LOVED THIS BOOK. Shane and Ilya are my life and I don't know how I went this long without them. It's been over a month since I finished reading and I still think about so many moments all the time - Shane's spicy drive to Ilya's house, the proposal, Ilya's snark (especially with Hayden), the pining and the longing and the ANGST. THE ENDING. My heart could not love this any more, and I will be absolutely completely feral over the adaptation.

POV: dual third person

You can expect: former rivals to lovers, secret relationship, opposites attract, roasting as a love language, long distance, men who go to therapy, "mine"/"yours".

Rep: Russian MMC, Japanese Canadian MMC, bisexual MMC, gay MMC, trans side character, grief.

Spice: 3/5

CW: accidental outing, homophobia, death of a parent (past).