content warnings: death, violence, loss of loved ones, grief, discussions of suicide, suicide attempt, abuse
representation: puerto rican gay main character with anxiety, cuban-american bisexual main character, main m/m romance, black side characters, colombian-american side character, various side characters of colour, various side queer characters

I love this book. So much. It made me laugh, it made me cry, and now I hate Adam Silvera and I will hold that grudge forever :)

First and foremost, I need to recommend the audiobook because, GUYS, it's so good. There's a narrator for Mateo's chapters, a narrator for Rufus' chapters, and a narrator for all the other ones, and all three of them are superb. I cannot recommend it enough.

Look, I get it, there's not much worldbuilding, but honestly, I didn't need it. This is a world that doesn't need to be explained to me because I'm happy to just be along for the ride. I don't care about when Death-Cast was created, or how, or where their information's from. I understand if that's something that bothers you, but personally I didn't want any worldbuilding.

I loved the characters. Not just Mateo and Rufus (though I did fall in love with both of them), but all the side characters as well: the Plutos, Lidia, all the miscellaneous sides that only fit into the story through coincidence, I loved them all in different ways. I'm not gonna lie, at first I wanted Mateo and Rufus to just stay friends, and was kind of annoyed that I knew they were going to get together in some capacity. But then it happened and I loved it.

I know that them professing their love for each other is unrealistic and cheesy, but a) they're teenagers for gods sake, and b) they're literally about to die, let them shout that they love each other from the fucking rooftops if they like.

This is a mess, but I loved this book and can't wait to pick up the other Adam Silvera book I have, More Happy Than Not.