3.5 or if i am being very specific 3.75 stars

i loved some aspects of this book and how real and truthful this book was without overplaying or excusing bad behavior.
i loved that this showed how a babysitter cares for the child in a real way had can have a hard time letting go of that child.
i loved how this book showed that not everyone in their mid to late twenties knows what they want to do and is happy with just getting by.
also the female friendships in this book where beautiful because it was a friendship! they helped each other, supported each other but also told the other of they did something stupid which to me, that’s friendship - going through fire for my friend without questions if they need it but also questing them if it seems that they need that!

i also really enjoyed how this book clearly showed the racial differences between a white and a black female. especially if there is a white rich female and a black poorer female.
it’s interesting how the white rich woman seems herself as right and knowing better even though she wants the black woman to be her friend but keeps treating her as an employee.

i also strangely liked how alix completely ignored emira privacy by looking at her phone and reading her messages and even emails... that kinda supported what i always though people would do if you babysit for them and leave your phone laying around. that they would snoop and see it as completely rectified because they should know what their babysitter is doing right?

i didn’t really love the way it was written -the back and forth of time lines to clear past moments up and show or explain current time behavior wasn’t done the best in my option- and the overall the characters where a bit underdeveloped in the way that i wasn’t sure what to feel for anyone beside emira.


all in all i really enjoyed