i loved this so much. i cried when it ended for no reason other than i wasn’t ready to let go of this book and these characters yet. 

mickey might be one of my favourite characters ever written. i see so much of myself in him, within his guilt and his heart and his filtered passion. his depression is prominent, it is part of him but it does not become him. his queerness was intertwined so carefully and casually but still with such gentle hands. his coming out scene meant a lot to me. in all it’s simplicity and in all the ways it wasn’t quite simple.

this book is raw and emotional but also so comforting and warm. 

also sports gays! they have never failed me!

side sapphic relationship and side polyam relationship with a heavy focus on depression and coping and processing. wowowow i cant quite put it into words well enough yet. i’m still left a little cut open after reading this. one of be of my faves of this year, easily.

my only complaint is that i felt there was still room for it to be developed, with the characters, their relationships and their pathway. it felt almost abruptly cut off and i just wished for a little more to it. but it was also perfect??? i’m conflicted