This book was just too awkward right from the start. The secondhand embarrassment from that second sex scene was too much. Neil unintentionally fumbled so badly, and I felt so bad for him. It didn’t help that the uncertainty of it all was also giving me, alongside the two of them, anxiety. The whole will-they-won’t-they phase was just too annoying because they’re both adults who are clearly into each other, so why were they dragging this out like a bad romcom?

One thing I liked about the book was how well it showed overthinking. Overthinking on all levels. School-related, academic path related, relationship wise, friendship wise. Wondering if you’re on the right path because you are feeling like everyone else has their life figured out but you. I also liked Roan’s professor. It’s always nice to have mentors at that age, especially when you feel like you keep making the wrong decisions about everything in your life. I think this aspect of the book was all I liked about it. Everything else was insufferable and took me way too long to complete it.

And then after all that suffering, I find out the author’s a massive Zionist?? Suddenly everything makes sense. The hints were loud in this one, wayyy louder than the first. So yeah, I’m glad I didn’t enjoy this one as much as the first one, to be honest, because now I can fully detach and move on in peace. What a waste.