This would have been a very different book (and likely better) if Ann had allowed herself more emotional distance before committing to it. Unfortunately, the book contract existed well before Ted was arrested for the final time and I'm sure the economic stress as a mother of four did not help. Each afterword in this edition (1986, 1989 - after his execution, 2000) read like she's finally able to become a little more objective each time. She reflects on her feelings about Ted and each time she comes to a conclusion about his character that seems more in line with the serial killer he became, even if the Ted he showed her was someone entirely separate.