I don't know how to talk about this book. I keep writing and erasing sentences because I can't seem to quite put into words how I feel. I'm glad I listened to this on audio, because Laymon's narration is excellent. He's a brilliant writer and his prose gracefully danced off the page even while discussing so much trauma. I skimmed other reviews and saw a few comparisons to Roxane Gay's [b:Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body|26074156|Hunger A Memoir of (My) Body|Roxane Gay|https://images.gr-assets.com/books/1448064366s/26074156.jpg|42362558] which I think is very apt. However, the comparison I drew was Gay's [b:An Untamed State|18467818|An Untamed State|Roxane Gay|https://images.gr-assets.com/books/1395145925s/18467818.jpg|26127435]. The books themselves as vastly different as Gay's is a novel and this is a memoir. But my reaction was really similar, particular the end of Heavy. I became so anxious and worked up as Laymon describes his trouble with addiction that I just wanted to jump out of my skin. It wasn't a pleasant feeling, but this book doesn't cover pleasant topics.

Anyway this is all to say that I thought this memoir was truly excellent.