I have so many thoughts and feelings about this book. It wasn't what I expected it at all. For most of the novel there's an extreme build up as Rowan tells her story of how she DID NOT commit a murder that she is in prison for and what really happened while she was Heatherbrae House. In theory, this book had all the makings of a perfectly creepy tale. The possibility of ghosts, disappearing nannies, a poison garden, children who drive their nanny absolutely mad, a slew of characters who could all be suspects, and parents who are incredibly absent for majority of the time. I listened in anticipation, dying to know where this was headed, what really happened, who had been murdered or died, and the theories of what had happened. All of that, unfortunately, got overshadowed for me by a big secret the Rowan eventually reveals. Her secret was....anticlimactic. You know she's hiding something, but you can't imagine what and how, exactly, it relates to the events that unfolded. Her reveal literally took the wind out of my sail and I was left sitting here like W....T....F. Not soon after this, we get the reveal we've been waiting for for the entire story, but for me, Rowan's first major reveal sort of stole the shine and glory and not in a good way. The final bit did bump this up for me because I was close to giving it 2 stars after hearing Rowan's major secret (not the initial secret, but the one that's connected to the initial secret. Confusing, I know), but once I finally learned what I came here to learn the juiciness of it melted my heart a bit and so here we are with a 3 star review.