Okay this one was very conflicting for me and I had such a hard time deciding on a rating because on one hand I absolutely adored the characters and it was very easy to root for Marvin & Olan as a couple but on the other hand, the main conflict was so frustrating as it went on and on and on. 

For one, I think the book was way too long and that’s what made the conflict feel so repetitive. I was honestly just ready for it to finally end at a certain point. But also there was sometimes a disconnect in the way conversations were happening and what Marvin was thinking. Like one second he’d be like “oh Olan is worth it and I know that he’s strong” and then the next it was like “I can’t do this, he’s gonna relapse” and then he would freak out and bolt and then regret it immediately. 

Also on a smaller scale, there were some conversations that made me sad because they were very focused on having to find “your person” to ever be happy and as an aroace person, that very much did not make me feel good. And there were a few parts where Marvin & Jill would be talking and Marvin’s character really played into the “gay men are grossed out by women” things and I just think that’s a tired stereotype 🤷🏻‍♀️

But with all that said, it was hard for me not to root for Marvin & Olan to figure things out! When they were good, they were just so good and their chemistry was off the charts! I was also very happy with the ending and how everything ended up! 

Another thing is that Ilona is an actual Angel of a human and any scene with her was just so wonderful!! 🥰  Honestly, would have loved to have even more of her throughout the book! 

Overall, even with my frustrations, I had a hard time rating it lower because of how much I loved the characters so I’m going with the 4 stars and I’m curious how everyone feels about all of it!