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My Heart to Find
by Elin Annalise
Quick Stats
Age Rating: 14+
Over All: 5 stars
Plot: 3/5
Characters: 4/5
Setting: 4/5
Writing: 3/5
Disability Rep: 10/5
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There are so many different things that I want to say about this book, and so many different ways that I could take this review, but to start I’m going to elaborate on my rating
This book means the absolute world to me. I was diagnosed with PANS (a form of autoimmune encephalitis) at 15. It’s a shockingly common autoimmune disorder considering no one has ever heard of it, suspected to effect 1/200 adolescents, however it was only officially recognized in 2013, which means the resources regarding it are extremely anemic, and the media representation is wholly nonexistent. I never expected to read a book with PANS representation unless I was the one to write it.
PANS is one of the biggest parts of my life. Everything in my life has been impacted by it. I am who I am because of PANS. I cannot begin to express how seeing that represented in a book has meant to me.
(I’m not crying as I type this. Nope. Definitely not me.)
Due to the onset of both the author and character’s PANS being after adulthood, PANS is most often referred to as encephalitis induced OCD (the P in PANS stands for pediatric, as most cases are first triggered in childhood, but that is not a requirement for the disorder).
The book itself, outside of the PANS rep, was okay. It was good. I really liked the characters and their relationships, but the writing wasn’t the best and the mystery was never much of a mystery at all. I really enjoyed the romance, especially the asexuality aspect.
Basically—you need to read this book. It is incredibly important. But don’t go in expecting a literary masterpiece. You will get a book with incredible chronic illness representation and a cute romance, and I truly believe that everyone would benefit from reading this book.
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Full review to come, but for now:
PANS REP PANS REP PANS REP!!!
This is an adult romance, but outside of the mystery element, there aren’t really any mature themes, so I’d say it’s okay for 14+
Age Rating: 14+
Over All: 5 stars
Plot: 3/5
Characters: 4/5
Setting: 4/5
Writing: 3/5
Disability Rep: 10/5
PANS REP PANS REP PANS REP PANS REP
There are so many different things that I want to say about this book, and so many different ways that I could take this review, but to start I’m going to elaborate on my rating
This book means the absolute world to me. I was diagnosed with PANS (a form of autoimmune encephalitis) at 15. It’s a shockingly common autoimmune disorder considering no one has ever heard of it, suspected to effect 1/200 adolescents, however it was only officially recognized in 2013, which means the resources regarding it are extremely anemic, and the media representation is wholly nonexistent. I never expected to read a book with PANS representation unless I was the one to write it.
PANS is one of the biggest parts of my life. Everything in my life has been impacted by it. I am who I am because of PANS. I cannot begin to express how seeing that represented in a book has meant to me.
(I’m not crying as I type this. Nope. Definitely not me.)
Due to the onset of both the author and character’s PANS being after adulthood, PANS is most often referred to as encephalitis induced OCD (the P in PANS stands for pediatric, as most cases are first triggered in childhood, but that is not a requirement for the disorder).
The book itself, outside of the PANS rep, was okay. It was good. I really liked the characters and their relationships, but the writing wasn’t the best and the mystery was never much of a mystery at all. I really enjoyed the romance, especially the asexuality aspect.
Basically—you need to read this book. It is incredibly important. But don’t go in expecting a literary masterpiece. You will get a book with incredible chronic illness representation and a cute romance, and I truly believe that everyone would benefit from reading this book.
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Full review to come, but for now:
PANS REP PANS REP PANS REP!!!
This is an adult romance, but outside of the mystery element, there aren’t really any mature themes, so I’d say it’s okay for 14+