not giving this a number rating because i genuinely cannot! the first half of this was so different to the back half - it’s also somewhat categorized as a romance, which is FALSE! - which led to some confusion of tone/message for me. i think both of the narrators are so interesting and layered, which i loved. i do feel like decklee wasn’t extended a lot of grace or even the effort to understand her from our present day characters despite being such a huge part of the story, which is something i will be thinking about after reading. the ending felt quite rushed and while i really appreciate voris letting the mess and pain be messy and painful and the high school romance be realistic and healthy, it just didn’t give me enough after the whole book was building and building. not my favorite but also it’s really making me think, which to me is a good thing.